24. World Is Empty

Pain is not to be measured on a scale

It is not to be analyzed

Or weighed

On a beam of balance

trying to figure out how they may still manage

After alla that damage

Because what's painful to me may be so sweet to you

And what really hurts you I may be longing to do 

So to understand pain

And a poet

And a person

So insane

Involves truth

Running to the light

Rather than avoiding

In fright 

Of judgment 

Moves similar to a serpent

Unplugged from the most thought virtue

And I'm not saying I ain't there right next to you 

I'm a glutton

And prideful

And sad

And have insanity 

If only y'all knew what all goes through my mind mentally

Trapped in this mansion

Opening doors 

Forgetting to answer the knock at the front

And it is my fault

I'll admit that

I take full responsibility

I understand I'm crazy 

So I know why I always wonder 

How could anyone love me

Being saved doesn't take the pain away

It just gives me so much more hope for another day

It drowns out the noise

Distracting me from toys

And gives me a joy 

Burning so much in my heart

It's intimidating to others

I guess

I don't know

And I'm not gonna try to understand

There's not much I know

In fact I only know one thing

And that's that Jesus saved me

So I can act on this 1st right and use my freedom of speech 

So why wouldn't I make use of it?

Why would I sit back and watch you lose it?

Trying to live till infinity

Trying to find things to talk about other than the G

Trying not to come off as forceful

Trying not to be mean

But 

Trying isn't helping 

Because when I try to live through me 

I fail everyday of the week

That's when I ask for Galatians 2:20

Live through me 

Love through me

World please reject me!

Oh please do 

Please tell me I'm not fit for you 

Cuz I ain't tryna be here anyways

I been thinkin bout the next place for about a thousand days 

Yea I'm telling y'all 

Though I may feel lonely toward earth

Y'all forget my name 

Y'all forget what I go by?

Y'all forget this ain't all for show?

And that this means something

This is all real life

And so true 

So as I continue on this earth I roam

I just gotta constantly remember 

this place is not my home