it's time I let it show.
Next time somebody tells me to try not to push "the whole Jesus thing" on them, Imma just go about my day and keep loving them.
Imma take it as a compliment.
"Oh you think I talk about Jesus too much? Oh good!! That means He knows I talk about him a lot too."
And I don't even be doing that half the time
I just talk about how Jesus changed my life & why I love him so much
And that's not even what I talk about half the time tbh, I talk about music and basketball just as much, if not more than God unfortunately. But maybe it's my life that's intimidating, not my words.
But ya know, ever since I got saved I tried with all my might to not be that "pushy Christian" type.
I've tried so hard to spread the gospel and it's love and just love other people, without saying the word "God" as much as possible.
And it hasn't seemed to work. Because people still consider me to "talk about God too much", "say that prayer is the answer to everything" etc.
But I truly believe that the truth is that prayer does answer everything. If prayer doesn't seem to be working, pray more. But you have to believe. Because one who doubts is like waves of the sea.
But I am now going to disappear from that route, trying to avoid being "blunt." I'm just going to love and talk the way I truly feel God wants me to.
And next time someone tells me not to talk about God so much,
Imma ask "why?"
Because it makes you feel uncomfortable?
Well shoot. It should make me feel uncomfortable when people push their views on me as well
ex/// things I don't do that people swear I should do bc it will "make me happy"
But I'm plenty happy without the stuff, so why you tryna change my life?
It's not even like I tell people "oh don't do that, or you're gonna go to hell"
No. Who am I to judge you because you sin differently than me? We're all destined for hell. Until we make the choice to accept Jesus's call to follow HIM.
But if you ask me if I think something is right, I'm going to tell you the truth as to what I feel based on the bible, my conscience, and further research. So don't be upset when I tell you the truth.
My life ain't perfect, and tho man fails me, never in my life have I ever felt unloved by God. He is the only thing I've ever known to be constant in my life, so why would I ever betray him?
Yet, I only (usually) mention Jesus when someone has sorrow or asks me a question and I give a valid response, and I suggest things I've found to bring true joy.
If it were meant to hurt you, I wouldn't tell you.
But I think we as human beings just don't like the truth, which is funny, because we hate being lied to.
So if you're looking for someone to sugar coat, and lie to you, do not come to me with questions or advice. Bc Imma tell you straight up. I'm not going to lie to you.
& if "God isn't your thing", I respect that. I do. And I'll keep showing you love, probably even more love, because that's what He's taught me to do.
And if you feel I talk about God too much, I'm sorry you feel that way. But I gotta keep preaching and loving bc again, that's what He taught me to do.
My boy Jesus literally said "I will make you fishers of men" and when making disciples, there's no sugar coating anyything.
That's what majority of churches nowadays do, sugar coat. That's why we're okay with just going on Sunday & not facing our truths any other day.
But I'm not here to talk about the church. Because Jesus loves his wife. And the true church will make it to the kingdom.
The only question is, will you?
Only the pure hearted go. And honestly, I'm still unsure completely what this means. But I know you can never go wrong with freeing your mind & loving people no matter what.
Always show love. Love created us. Love saved us. Love is what makes us human. We live off of love.
And after all this. What I've learned most is that it isn't about religion. Never has been.
But it's about showing LOVE.
never holding grudges
Always forgiving
Treating others the way I wanna be treated
And showing unconditional love as much as possible to all those I come in contact with
And love doesn't lie.
So never believe "I didn't tell you because I love you."
No. If I lied to you, that's not a sign of love. So when I talk about Jesus, don't take it as me judging you. Because it's not on me to judge you. It's on me to love you.!
All I care about is that you feel the love I'm showing you. I don't care how you're living your life. I won't judge you for your sins, or mistakes.
We all make mistakes. Your sin is no bigger than mine, and mine is no smaller than yours. We just all have to make the efforts to love people, and love God. And it changes our lives so immensely you won't even recognize yourself within a couple weeks.
Im not gonna lie to you. And if you think your truth is different than my truth, I understand that. But love is inevitable. Love is a universal truth.
When you really love someone you just wanna talk about them all the time! You wanna let the world know how they make you feel!!
And man, do I love my God.
And man, do I feel loved by Him.
And because I love you. I want you to feel loved too.
Regardless off all the pain I've ever gone through, any hardship or heartache, I've seen how each occurrence made me who I am today. Regardless of how I use to curse God's name. I know he just had the better plan all along.
I'm going to use my 1st amendment right and speak the beautiful and marvelous mind that God gave me.
There's truth in love. Love never lies. So don't come to me expecting me to lie to you.
Now run and tell that.
Khadijah Evans
